Thanks!

So today is the "kinder-surprise" day.
And it turns out to be none other than:

Full Body Massage =D

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Before the commencement:

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Some pictures of the place:

Happy and satisfied faces after:

How About A Round Of Applause?

It took me some time to realize that once a show is over,

You applaud, smile and walk away even if it's good.

No matter how much you like the show,

You can't stay and linger in the theatre,

Because no one is going to put up the show for you again.

So while you are enjoying the show,

Try to immerse yourself in the show there and then,

And capture the wonderful memories.

But sadly, sometimes even memories fail us.

We try desperately to hold on to the memories.

But just like sand, they trickle,

And slip out of our hands grain by grain.

And whatever that is be left would be,

The few miserable grains stuck to our clammy hands.

So remember, every fistful of sand you grab,

Only a small portion remains.

But what can we do?

No matter how careful we are,

We all lose some things along the way.

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*Tick tock, Tick tock. I can feel it slipping away.

Wound.

Overtime, a wound would gradually heal.
And when it is completely healed,
It will no longer hurt when you touch it.
However, upon looking at the scar,
You would be reminded of the pain.
And that is when you tell yourself,
NEVER to fall again.

But we humans never learn, or do we?

Butterfly Effect.

I've just watched "The Butterfly Effect". I think it's freaking GOOD!! You can just get goosebumps watching it.

Maybe most of us don't realize it, but minor changes can actually create a major consequence on us. If only I can rewrite my past, how different would I be now?



Jason Treborn: "You can't change who people are without destroying who they were."

*Oh, on a side note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA! =)

You Are Only Young ONCE.

Caught "17 again" today. Pretty decent. Funny and thought provoking.

Got me wondering. IF I can be 17 again, what would I do? Hmmm. I think I will make some changes here and there, but leave everything else pretty much the same. And maybe everything now would be so much more different.



Oh well, but I can't be 17 again, can I?

Ah, I just recieved an email about the SR Alumni Volleyball Tournament. What an appropriate timing. Haha :) Now I feel real old.

A Cow Moos.

So what's for dinner for me tonight?

It is....
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Can you guys guess what is this?
Salad? No.
Vegetable galore? Half right.

It is actually....




FRIED RICE!!

But where's the rice, you would ask.
It is camouflaged by the freaking cucumbers and carrots.
You might think it is cute, colorful and healthy, but i tell you, I feel like a cow after eating that. The veggies are all raw and hard. Yucks. I swear it is a bloody huge bowl. The endless pit.

Hello Panda.

Mum:"You look like a panda from afar. You better get more sleep."
Me: "Er. Ok. If I can, I would." =/

Anyways, my mum is giving in! After my sister talked to her for ONE night? AND I tried for FOUR-FIVE nights. Screw my persuasion skills. But but, I think my mum is biased since whatever my sister said was exactly the same as me. :(

But bad news is, only for one semester I think. Nvm, it is better than nothing. JIA, see! I won't give in because of a car ok! I'm not that materialistic! HAHA! Buffalo, Buffalo here I come!!!!

Escape.

"Where can you run to escape from yourself?"

The Script - I'm Yours

Soothing song for the soul.

Freaking Weather.

The night is so hot that my butt is actually perspiring. GROSS =/ Ok, I better go and on my air con now.

Anyways, now my mum has psycho-ed my dad to gang up on me. How smart. Next time before any major decisions, I will make sure they sign a contract, black and white. So they can't back out. GRRR.. Irritating.

Which Way?

Background music. Pete Murray - So beautiful.

Trump Card.

My mum is very desperate now, she has thrown in her trump card ----- a new car. SHIT! HELP ME!

So, How?

Now, whenever I speak about Buffalo, my mum will look at me with those sad eyes and say, "You really going ah?" =/ She was so calm and cool before, why is she so afraid now???

So maybe, just maybe, I will give in a little. Which means I will go there for just one sem (around 6 months?) I get to go Buffalo to experience the life there and my mum would be assured that 6 months would be too short a time to be killed there. Win-win situation? Grr.. Jia, Sorry!!! But all's not confirmed yet. Haven't really discussed with mum yet.

Then I will end up back in Singapore for my spring semester all alone with no friends. =( Cuz all of you guys would have graduate by then. Kind souls who are staying for spring semester, pls let me know! Can I be your friend? WUAHAHA!

Why Now?

Hmm guess what? Now my mummy is dissuading me to go Buffalo for studies. Like at this point of time when everything is planned. She's even close to tears when she spoke to me. =/ Said she will miss me and all. Haiz.

Told her I wanna be independent and learn to live on my own. And just like what my friends said, she said, I can be independent in Singapore too. She told me she can throw me in an apartment in Singapore to live alone and fend for myself. Cooking, washing or whatever shit all done by myself.

But like I said, it is different. I'll still end up reliant and dependant, and I will definitely call my parents at the slightest thing. Trust me. How can I ever be independent if I stay in Singapore?

I know I would miss everything that I leave behind. But that's a choice and decision made by myself. Because I believe that whatever that don't kill me, makes me stronger. But my mum don't understand. She kept asking why do I want to dump a comfortable life to live alone. I do not want her to worry, I just want her to be proud of me. I just want to prove that I can take care of myself. Is it that difficult?

It's gonna be my first time away from home, and I know, I will miss her too.

A Realization, Not Too Late.

Luther Vandross - Buy Me A Rose

He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants

But it tears her apart ‘cause nothing’s for her heart

He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss goodnight

If he could only read her mind, she’d say…[CHORUS]

Buy me a rose, call me from work

Open a door for me, what would it hurt

Show me you love me by the look in your eyes

These are the little things I need the most in my life

Now the days have grown to years of feelin’ all alone

As she sits and wonders if all she’s doin’ is wrong

‘Cause lately she’d try anything just to turn his head

Would it make a difference if she said, if she said…[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE]

And the more that he lives the less that he tries

To show her the love that he holds inside

And the more that she gives the more that he sees

This is the story of you…and me

So I bought you a rose on the way home from work

To open the door to a heart that I hurt

And I hope you notice this look in my eyes

‘Cause I’m gonna make things right for the rest of your life

And I’m gonna hold you tonight, tonight

Do all those little things for the rest of your life

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*Little things matter the most.

Don't Stop Believing

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

-Marilyn Monroe

*Note to self.

Creepy crawlies

Purchase made. About 2 years upon completion. Still have quite some time left. But I'm beginning to miss tamp already. Although I am adaptable, I dont quite like changes. Haha or maybe, I'm just a sentimental person. That should be something good right? I don't ditch the old for the new. Haha, never mind. Whatever will be, will be. I will just cherish the time left.

Oh, on a random note, I just saw a lizard skitter past my wall. So, what did I do? I asked my Dad to kill it for me. HAHA I'm not that brave to do it myself. I know many of my friends think lizards are cute and harmless, but I really don't think so. But I certainly do not hate them as much as I hate cockroaches. That's for sure.


Tell me how can this be cute? ARGH!

Loving It, For Now.

Spent whole day out with parents viewing showrooms. Boringgg. Maybe I will shift in 2 years time. Anyways, long time since I've spent the whole day with my parents. Love it! I'm sucha Mummy & Daddy's girl. =D

Yeah.. Now it's time to relax!! HAHA. shiokshiokshiok. No more research papers!

Creep

After playing rock band last Friday, I'm addicted to this song - Radiohead - Creep. Nice!!!

But apparently, "Creep" met with little success in the UK when it was first released in September 1992. Radio 1 found the song "too depressing" and refrained from playing the song. But I loved it anyways. =)

I can't wait for the next session of rock band with you guys again!! I will hog the drums! =D

Short Story

Once upon a time, there was this little girl named Tee Tee. She had a Barbie doll which she loved dearly. She played with it every single day, and no matter what she was doing, she never allowed Barbie to leave her side.

However, as the days and years went by, Barbie got really old and worn out. She could not lift her arms or play with Tee Tee anymore. Tee Tee was really upset and angry.

She thought: “Barbie, why can’t you stay by my side and play with me forever?” In a fit of anger, Tee Tee decided to chuck Barbie aside and got herself a new Cosmo doll. Since Barbie “abandoned” her in the first place, Tee Tee thought she should just play with Cosmo and leave Barbie behind.

Tee Tee had some fun when she was playing with Cosmo, and she thought she was genuinely happy. But as Tee Tee spent more time with Cosmo, she realized that Cosmo did not know how to play the game the way she liked it. She started to think about Barbie and all the wonderful times they had.

Barbie knew her the best. Without saying a word, she could make Tee Tee happy. With each passing day, she missed Barbie badly.

Barbie still respected Tee Tee very much and despite being thrown in the corner of the room, she stood up and greeted Tee Tee every time Tee Tee walked by. However, Tee Tee was too ashamed to speak to Barbie anymore and she could only look at Barbie from afar.

Tee Tee knew that if she was to pick Barbie up again, fix her and put on new clothes for her, everything would be the same as before and they could be very happy together.

However, Tee Tee remembered she had Cosmo now, so it would be irresponsible for her to leave Cosmo because Cosmo had done nothing wrong and Tee Tee could not be so selfish as to hurt another doll.

Tee Tee was very confused so she needed some ‘time out’ to sort out her feelings and thoughts. In the process, Cosmo realized that Tee Tee had been spending lesser time with her. So she got mad and shouted at Tee Tee: “Why did you change? I thought you loved me?”

With her head down, Tee Tee quietly replied: “I’ve never changed, I’ve never once changed. And that’s the problem.” With that, Tee Tee started to weep.

One Hell Of A Week.

Just when I'm sooo busy and overwhelmed with research papers and presentations, guess what?

My mum wants us to go shopping for................

Houses. =/

So I said: "NO time NO time, till thursday!"

Let this week pass by smoothly please. *cross fingers.

Bull's Eye.

Yesterday night or rather this morning, on the way back home....

"Sorry to bring up the past. But you can't deny that those times were the happiest time of your life."
I nodded in silent agreement.
Deep in thought, "I know that too, but what can I do?"

Everything good in this life is but a fleeting memory, we just can't pursue the illusionary yet beautiful past. There are many things in life we can't control, and one of them is, fate.


That is life for you, bro.


*Endure! Only about 4-5 more months to go.

Pretentious.

Have you all ever met people like this?

"Do you want to go first?"
Me: "It's ok."
Milliseconds later, he/she pushes past you just to get through.

"You can have that seat."
Me: "It's ok."
Milliseconds later, he/she slumps down on the seat.

"Do you want to try this ____ (food)?"
Me: "It's ok."
Milliseconds later, he/she shoves the food right into their mouth.

"Do you want me to pick you up/send you back?"
Me:"It's ok."
Milliseconds later, he/she says, ok bye.

Haha, this kinda people puzzles me the most. If they are so insincere and unwilling to do any of the above, why do they even ask? Just for the sake of asking? If they do not want to do it, I rather they not ask. Loserrr.

When They Both Meet.

The commitment and consistency rule states that once we make a decision, we will experience pressure from others and ourselves to behave consistently with that decision. You can be pressured into making either good or bad decisions depending on your past actions.

Cognitive dissonance is an uncomfortable feeling caused by holding two contradictory ideas simultaneously. Dissonance normally occurs when a person perceives a logical inconsistency among his or her cognition. This happens when one idea implies the opposite of another.

So when both commitment and consistency rule and cognitive dissonance meet, trust me, it will be an inner battle.

*The worst person to lie to is ultimately, yourself.

For Good

Wicked and Kristin Chenoweth: "For Good"

Elphaba:
I'm limited
(Just look at me)
I'm limited
So now it's up to you
(For both of us)
Now it's up to you...

Glinda:
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

(Elphaba) It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

(Glinda) Because I knew you

(Both) I have been changed for good

(Elphaba) And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

(Glinda) But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

(Both) And none of it seems to matter anymore

(Glinda) Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

(Elphaba) Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

(Both) Who can say if I've been Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

(Glinda) And because I knew you...

(Elphaba) Because I knew you...

(Both) Because I knew you...

I have been changed for good.

*Heard this song in class and it really evoked strong emotions in me. I'm sure all of you would have met someone who will change you for good, for the better. So did I.

I've changed for good. Maybe, everything happens for a reason.
All of us gotta learn someday, somehow.